Volume #5
How was your holiday season? Whatever your answer is, it’s welcome here. Life is lifey, and there’s no need to sugarcoat it in my world.
Mine? Confusalating. (Wicked fans unite. #teamoriginalsoundtrack)
It’s been a long time since I’ve felt this unstable — without direction, knowing, or sense of self. My intuition was working perfectly for my work helping all of you, but for me? It felt like I’d been cut off from source for the last eight weeks.
I went through two back-to-back losses in October and December that, despite having every tool in the box, still did a number on my system.
Where I’m normally quick and decisive, clear on direction, with a body that tells me exactly what it needs — I experienced the exact opposite.
Being reminded of an era I thought had long passed was deeply dysregulating.
I wasn’t sure I wanted to share this with you. But then I received the nudge that maybe just one person needs to read what I’m about to share. And that this could really help them.
The losses were hard, sad, confusing, and unexpected. But what was worse was the person I thought I was losing in the process:
Me.
Luckily, I have the recipe. I’ve guided thousands of people through this. So I knew if I practiced what I preach, I could get myself through it too.
This one is for you — the one who has put in the work, who found their steady for a period of time, and is now experiencing a setback or temporary regression in your magic.
Here’s how you rise.
Body First
This may surprise you, but I don’t touch my intuitive tools or processes until I’ve moved my body.
Why? Because if the fluid isn’t shifting, muscles aren’t firing, and old energy hasn’t been used up, any new energy or ideas I’m trying to generate will be tainted.
There’s a quote that applies here:
“Exhaust the body to tame the mind.”
Intuition requires extra energy available in your nervous, endocrine, and limbic systems. That energy has to be generated — it doesn’t increase from lazing around (unfortunately).
Even when you don’t want to, here are the rules for firing your internal generators back up:
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Get outside for at least 15 minutes. Walk, stretch, moon the neighbors — just get out there.
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Don’t overhaul your entire diet. Increase phytonutrient-rich foods. Carbs signal safety to the brain.
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Move like your life depends on it. Laps, walking, stretching, light weights, Pilates — it all counts.
Tools Next (But Guided)
I noticed that when I tried using my own intuition during heightened stress and grief, biased answers came through — even with tools meant to bypass that.
That reminded me of the first tool most of us forget when feeling shut down:
Community.
Once I realized this, I reached out to people who could help calm my system and act as allies as I navigated my way back to myself.
Here’s what surprised me: the people I usually turned to weren’t the right allies for this level.
In reflection, I recognized a “tell” in my body. The people who could help felt like generators.
Their questions, curiosity, and presence honored both my temporary depths and the version of me they knew I’d return to.
They didn’t pussy-foot. They weren’t afraid to be direct or ask what others avoided.
That combination created safety.
Choose your allies by finding someone who will:
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Ask the questions others won’t
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Challenge your beliefs without rewriting them
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Make you feel like you’re coming back to life
The person who’ll send you a dark meme, a science article, and a chicken taquitos recipe in one Instagram binge?
That’s your helper.
The One Tool That Holds Everything
Is there one magic tool to pull you through?
Actually, yes.
The tool that holds the should-be’s and could-be’s: your Akashic Records.
Once you start to surface, this is the tool to dust off first.
The Records aren’t just a vault of the past — they’re a living frequency field of potential next moves.
Unresolved records take up energy. Reconciling them frees space.
Clearing your Records isn’t running from the past. It’s becoming the observer so the past no longer runs your future.
Find Something That Brings You to Life
I painted a wall.
I know — it sounds silly. But our entire house is white. All of it.
“The Wall” wasn’t just design. It was energy. Color. Texture. Feeling.
Putting your external environment in order can turn your internal generator back on.
(Caveat: intentionally numbing out doesn’t count.)
That’s the recipe:
Meet the needs of the body
To create space for a friend
That opens the mind
And lends space for the future
xo Caitlin
P.S. If you’re new to Akashic work or returning after a disconnect, I’ve shared a free conversation on Akashic Records — plus a juicy meditation — on YouTube. Click here to access.
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